broken hearts. no words. restoring love.

I'm finding myself at a loss of words and the funny thing is, it's okay.

I've honestly tried to write this blog about 3 times throughout the past few weeks, but I just haven't been able to put anything into words lately. [shocker. i know.] 

Word of God Speak by MercyMe began playing on pandora a few minutes ago, and now i have a few words, kinda.

to be completely honest, i've just been really exhausted lately. i've had some really good days & i've had some really hard days. some days, i just really don't feel drawn to the Lord and that's probably the reason i've been at a loss for words. some days, i just question God on everything. & other days are good & i spend my moments with a thankful heart. 

some days, i feel broken. 

but most days, i see others broken.

When i'm broken, it all turns out okay because i know i can trust in Jesus to restore me with His love.

but when i see others broken... it breaks my heart into a million tiny little pieces. 

since i've moved, one of the things God has shown me the most is that He answers ALL prayers in some way. before this realization, i prayed a lot about God breaking my heart for what breaks His. i didn't really take that prayer very seriously, but now... now i do.

i see people hurting. i see people struggling. i see people with hard hearts, and my heart breaks for them. i know this is because God is an answerer of prayers. i take praying a lot more seriously now than i did a few months ago. i pray for people in the hallways, in the car on a busy street, facebookers & tweeters. [i even began to pray for a lady on a t.v. show the other day only to be reminded that the character wasn't real.] 

simply put, my heart has been breaking for the broken and it leaves me at a loss of words. the words i do come up with though, are often turned into heartbreaking prayers. 

seeing other ache can sting.

& some days, i just can't take the heart break.

"Come, all you who are thirsty, come to the waters..." -Isaish 55:1

"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest." -Matthew 11:28

i am so thankful for a listening God who answers prayers. i am so thankful for a promising God who provides rest. i am so thankful for a loving God who constantly restores. i am so thankful for an understanding God who knows everything on my heart even when i have no words. 

i am so thankful for the awe in God's saving grace and restoring love.

though i sometimes wish the path to Jesus didn't include brokenness, i'm so thankful God continuously hugs my heart tightly and fixes everything. sometimes, the Lord leaves me so speechless.

...I'm finding myself at a loss for words, and the funny thing is, it's okay.